....serial monogamy

I hope you stay longer than a week
I hope this doesnt hurt
resent.animosity.confusion.diffusion
regression.transgression.
sublimation
the aftertaste
deny emotion
practice pica to elude control
Amenorrhea
Such a beautiful girl with such a sad heart
..and still I..
.... hope. you decide to stay

i resent you

Im sitting here and the only thing I can do is cringe the words in my mind over and over again... as if Im saying it with vengeance, an unsubtle whisper that swims through my teeth and curls over my lips... 'sulkers'. I resent, I vindicate, I love and I love to hate.
It doesnt even deserve this attention it craves. The cheap trophy is almost his, almost thrown his way.
I am a prize but I have no meaning by myself. And so I cringe again and once more.
Everything about you is all that i abhor.
I wish you were different, not so shoddy and cheap
Maybe more like me.